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Aug 11, 2025

· 2 min read

199 lbs

TODO​

  • learn Gemni API
  • Math Academy
  • learn PyTorch

It's tough out there​

My son does not undertand his confortable life comes from my struggles. He doesn't understand that I've been shielding him from reality. During his college application process, he tasted the bitter truth being Asian male. You are fucking hated. Schools don't want you. The world doesn't want you. The only way for you to succeed is to succeed in spite of this rigged system.

But sadly I still do not see it. Hopefully things will change once his out of this house. I don't know. Ultimately this will be his life. But I won't jeorpadize my future in any way. He can now live his life and I can finally live my own life.

Now I get My Dad was always sad in US​

By moving here, my Mom called my Dad a loser without calling him a loser. And I don't think my Dad ever got over that. My ultimate goal is to move back to Korea and die there. It's sorta amazing that I lived in a foreigh country for this long. Never felt welcomed or should I be. There is always this tension of having to be polite. In Korea, I don't have to "think" about it. I just am cuz we all share the same genes or blood whatever.

It's an amazing feeling to be in Korea at least for me. I feels "home"

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Chloe didn't get Ms. G for her math class this year. Finally, Lee family's luck is turning around for this year!